I will try to be strong and you’re right. I never thought that someone like you really cares even if I don’t know you personally. Thank you dear :))
Just flee if you can’t fight because that will not make you less of a person rather, it gives you more time to think and act rationally. Fleeing doesn’t always mean cowardice. Take the flight and land somewhere peaceful and serene.
I had this short, funny conversation with my sister and Pops while we’re in the kitchen, waiting for dinner to be served. I thought of putting it on my blog and have something to laugh about when time comes. Though it may sound not funny because I’m not good at telling stories, still, I’ll put it here.
Me: (taking out a jar of uncooked oats and started eating)
Yana: Ate pahingi.
Pops: Ano yang kinakain mo?
Pops: Hilaw pa yan ha?
Yana: Ganyan talaga, pagkain ng mga beauty queen.
I couldn’t help myself from laughing with my sister’s funny retort. It sounded funny to me. Seriously, my sister’s got a knack in that department.
Again, this feeling eats me. I feel weird and vulnerable. I’m afraid for each passing minute that I might breakdown and go haywire causing me to do something erratic. Oh please, calm my nerves. It’s like an ocean of emotions trying escape a glass container.
I don’t wanna go around the town carrying an antihistamine on my pocket- well not for me anymore. Last week before leaving Manila, I had to see a dermatologist because I’ve been suffering into manic attacks of severe itchiness and skin rashes- which I’ve never experienced before except for my skin hypersensitivity. Nah, this one is different. Maybe a month ago, I was bitten at school by a sneaky arthropod( i have no idea what it is) which caused my hand to swell and my foot. Then after a week, it was my left hand. The doctor said that maybe I am sensitive to some insect bites and that I should start using insect-repellent and always carry an antihistamine just in case. I’m definitely seeing the doctor again for follow-up check-up this Wednesday. As for the insect-repellent, I’m thinking if I should buy the Human Heart Nature or the one frequently commercialized on telly. But one of my blockmates said that the latter is not really effective and it’s HHN that is really effective,
These little jet-propellers are so cute. When you go near them, they start to resurface from underwater and actually open their mouth for food. They are quite expectant though. Haha. Excuse me for the bad photography.
I got some of my grades for this semester and boy, I was disappointed. It’s my fault and I admit that. I was pretty slacking and spent more time freely hugging the internet and making it my lover. This maybe the worst semester ever for me. Plus the fact that the school administration changed the grading scheme. Now, you get 2.00 for 91. How bad is that?
Today marked the ‘almost-end’ of our suffering from final exams. There was a lot and it killed me. It also gave birth to these little zits on my forehead which is why I’m kinda freaking out. I can’t remember when was the last time I had an acne breakout that’s why I’m not comfortable having these zits posing like a queen. Haha. Anyway, it’s a fast-paced survival week for me while going through severe headache and serious case of laziness and procrastination. Good thing though that days before the finals, I was able to relax at Calatagan,Batangas with friends of course. It was a weekend get-away disguised as Eco lab activity. I miss the ocean.
And I’ve been thinking about using a point and shoot film camera I’ve told my Mom to get me when she had her vacation in our province. I have the camera for almost two years now. Too nervous here. I don’t know why. I really hope I could do it now.
The past few weeks had been very scrutinizing and stressing. Those were the weeks wherein, I go home late at night because of thesis consultations with my adviser. Worst is, I have to bring my journal and laptop to school which by the way, weighed like a ton. Then when I get home, I’d spend the night reading journals, revising what’s to be revised which sucks because the more I edit my thesis, the more that I feel that there’s something wrong, and endlessly thinking if my thesis proposal will be approved. Luckily, I got mine approved and it’s a huge relief. In that way, I could focus (I hope so) on the coming exams and run some errand. Two weeks from now, I’ll be submitting the slides that I prepared for my Microtechniques. There are 40+ slides that I’m required to submit and unfortunately I only have some, and that some means I only have less than ten slides. I feel sorry for brutally killing that innocent guinea pig last last week.
Forgive me Universe but I have to do it. My groupmates doesn’t even want to hold it nor even kill it. I twisted its neck and man the guinea pig cried. Huhu. I felt guilty because one of my classmates asked me which group owns the guinea pig and I said that we own it. Then he went own blabbering how cute the guinea pig was, that it was barely two-months old and that it doesn’t deserve to be killed. So yeah. Hands-up and handcuff me now. Huhu. Seriously, after that conversation I felt bad. RIP GUINEA PIG. SEPTEMBER 7, 2013. Maybe I got my karma at the same day because I got caught on a bad traffic and I wasn’t able to go to B-side. Ugh. Then a while ago, I went solo fight to MIBF and man did I get a headache. There were too many people and the atmosphere wasn’t fun. It felt gloomy for me so I decided to go home instead. Then I dropped by at Tous les Jours for some deliciously tasting bread. Man, I wanna eat my breakfast there. Legendary bread I must say. Their macaroon is really cute and colorful that the moment you take it out of its pack, you just wanna put it back again and just stare at it. Mine is still in its pack. And shit really happens because I lost my calculator. I prolly should tape my bag’s zipper or not bring a bag at all.